What do you say happened with Ethan? I fuck things up..that’s what happened. I miss him though. I miss him so much. A couple hours ago I was laying in the dark curled up in a ball. I had my earphones on but wasn’t listening to music. All I could do was think about him.
There’s this song..by Cobra Starship, The World Has It’s Shine (But I Would Drop It On A Dime For You) I told him that it was our song and posted it on his Facebook page. When he dumped me he blocked me from Facebook. The only thing he let me see was that song,
The days after that I wasn’t able to go to sleep unless I heard the song. I would have it on replay, and that’s the only way I was able to go to sleep.
There’s also another song. Your Guardian Angel by the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, he said that he loved that song. So those two songs had a special place in my playlist. I named it Ethan.
So I was laying in the dark, and it’s been a long time since I’ve heard the Cobra Starship song plus I couldn’t get him out my mind so I turn it on. I closed my eyes and listened to it. About half way throughout felt my hand starting to tingle. I swear it felt like he was holding my hand. I could feel him everywhere. I kept my eyes closed and I could picture it. Me and him, he’s laying beside me.
Then I start crying. I know I’m a baby but I want him so bad. And I could here him saying its ok. Which made me cry harder. Because I imagined his voice so well I actually believed he was beside me. I opened my eyes….
I think I’m crazy, like no joke. I don’t know if I’m falling into depression again or what. But I want him back.
I want Ethan back.
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