I’m a mess…
A teenage girl who’s hormones are raging more than usual. I am a human, a person that doesn’t know who she is or what she wants to be. Someone who ends up crying out of nowhere or ends up laughing at an inappropriate time. I’m an abomination, a murderer, I have a horrible body. My face is screwed up. My insides…my whole interior is dark and bad and I deserve to die
My heart yearns for him. He’s all I can ever think about. I just want things to Be the way they were last April. I’ve known him for over a year and I don’t think he knows how much I look up to him. I try to help him, with all the strength I have. I want him to know who he is! I’m starting to cry just by thinking about how we used to be. How we were the perfect couple…
I want that back so bad. I want to be his wife. A few weeks ago I thought he realized how much I love him! But he’s just confused 😦
Ugh..
I’m trying to get over this compulsion to squeeze him and scream in his face and tell him how much I love him. I’ve been talking to this guy. His name is John..I call him John Doe because he seems like a mystery to me, how he’s so nice and sweet to me. And I don’t know why he’s like this so he’s John Doe. I told him about my past. About Ethan. About the baby..and her isn’t judging me. He didn’t even give me a look of disgust. I don’t know what it is about him…
