You said you were enjoying life and trying to find someone who cares…you said that on the 23rd…
god 5 days before that…
…I just wish you would’ve fought harder….
i still love you. It doesn’t change a thing.
you know you don’t have to completely break contact with me. I can wait a million years for you, I just can’t live my life without you. I only want to repair what’s broken.
i promise I’ll do it.
I am devoted now. Isn’t it now that counts, love?
The past…I was sad…I was mad. I felt deprived of attention. I was also under the influence. I know that there is no excuse. I’ve asked for forgiveness.
Now all I’m looking for is you’re forgiveness. And a new chapter..the one where we live happily ever after. I will get my happily ever after. I will make sure you get it too. Im working my harderst.
I can make him love me.
things will change. Things will change. I will give him everything he wants. He can move out of his moms house..I’ll show him that I love him every single second we are together.
I don’t care that it only took him a week to get over me… September 19th… One week..I deserve it. I deserve to be treated like shit. From the beginning I deserved the little attention he gave me. I just didn’t realize it.
He can treat me however he wants. I will show him that I love him.
I’m working and saving up to move to Renton. I’m going to amend my mistakes. I only love one person. And if this is fate then you will see this. And if luck is on my side then maybe we’ll run into each other in a year and a half.
I should’ve just gave him sex. That’s what bodies are for and for a while I thought that’s all he wanted. But that’s me..always fucking things up. If I gave it to him then our relationship wouldn’t have diminished. None of this would’ve happened. I’m such a selfish bitch.