I drank the whole bottle. Nothing happened. The next day I got a really bad headache and couldn’t eat anything. A couple days after I went to see Angel again…Angel with one “l”. That’s his name, the guy I got caught with. But this time I snuck out to go see him. My mom went out looking for me and I found out that John told her everything. My mom thinks I’m just having sex with all these random guys now. I told her I wasn’t. Because I wasn’t…I literally just sat in his lap and laid my head on his chest. I actually fell asleep on him. I came home and found my mother gone. She came back and guessed just about everything.. I told her I was going to the park the last few times I went to see him. She doesn’t believe anything I say though.. She completely believes John.
I know i made mistakes… I made lots of them. I wish I could take them all back. So I went to look up John on Facebook and found he changed his profile picture. He’s with a girl named Elizabeth. I know for a fact that he never cared about me. It breaks my heart to pieces…I couldn’t even breathe right for 10 minutes. I do not want to think any bad thoughts on anybody but I couldn’t stop thinking how African she looked. This isn’t a bad thing but I didn’t know that John liked these types of girls..it’s really surprising.. Maybe it’s because of how I was raised but I just didn’t find her attractive. Which means that in turn I’m probably not very attractive either.. Though I’m not African I am part black..
I want to cleanse myself from all these bad thoughts that I can’t stop thinking. I haven’t been to sleep… I can’t sleep. Not now..