Is it bad to want attention?
With a fucked up family of 4 kids and a mom who has trouble paying attention to one, let alone 4. And an asshole dad with 2 other bastards who are very spoiled and rotten to the core.
I feel like it isn’t so bad to want attention when it feels like you’re invisible.
Your family doesn’t pay attention to you, you’re school doesn’t pay attention to you.
I’d like to believe that’s why I used to slut around. But I know I did it because I wanted Ethan back. Honestly.. I want attention but I’ve been trying to get it for so long that it doesn’t even matter.
I just want life to be over. I would give my life to a poor soldier who died saving his country in a heartbeat. Living my life Is worthless. I’m worthless.
I don’t have a point in life. I’m not saving cancer, hell I’m not been saving a kitty. I’m not doing any good yo society so I think its time for me to go.
Ijust want John..,
I feel selfish around him though. I want to spend all of my time with him but I don’t want to take up all of his. He should be able to hangout with his friends without me hogging.
Anyways, I think I’m going to sleep😴